The Motivation

Ah, so some wonder why I’m going through all of these efforts to venture to South Africa….I won’t lie, it’s largely to explore a possibility with someone that I value as much more than a friend.

39 days until I’m there. 39 days to get things in order, to get my courage together and to better some things about myself, from an internal perspective. 39 days until I can stand in front of the one person who has driven me and supported me throughout this process.

The water fasting will be a struggle. I have had to start out with eating one light meal, while drinking large quantities of water throughout the day. Tomorrow, it’s cold turkey time. And I won’t be stepping on the scale every day, obsessing. I’ve no time for that.

It’s hard to explain why I’m so smitten with someone I’ve yet to experience in person, but there isn’t a doubt in my mind that I’ve been put on this path for a reason.

So, I’m trying to soothe my nerves…because all of these stresses will likely be forgotten once we’re face to face.


About msladyvenom

I've decided that I wanted to make an impact in life as I start creeping further into my 30' life, love of self, and love of others. Follow me as I go through this journey of recreation.....the highs, lows, pains and smiles. I've struggled my whole life with self-image, from abusive relationships to deep depressions and heartbreaking losses. Granted, people are always faced with obstacles in life- but I waited too long to tackle mine.
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